And you just saw me encase my dad in a pile of rocks because I thought I could make things better instead of worse for once!

[ that was reflexive, and varian pauses after saying it, lifting a hand to his mouth like he's going to be sick before he swallows and follows through, voice shaking a bit-- ]

You said, you said that wasn't my fault. So why would that be yours? You-- you didn't deserve that.